Training Liberty!

There are 2 kinds of people in this world,

one who is always positive, aka optimist

and one who is always negative, aka pessimist.

Different people react almost differently given the same situation.

Some people will go," Damn i must do it! Cannot let people laugh at me!"

But some will go," Wtf, cannot thn cannot ba, i suck anyway,Whatever!"

But there are also people who is in between," Dammit i suck to the core, nvm i'll just do it myself,C'mon!" who will pick themselves back up.

Sad to say im not =)

Im not those who are positive,

neither am I part of the " picking themselves back up" group.

I may seem happy,

laughing, smiling at times,

but sometimes that's not how i really feel =)

Deep inside is a whole different story.

Dun ask me why,

Im born like this,

is not what i want.

Who would wanna have negative thoughts anyway.

Im trying my best to be positive,

it's diff.

Im telling myself things like," Aiya nvm one! Can one try again! Don't give up F*cker!"

But it doesnt really chnge how i feel.

When im hit with both negative things and positive ones together,

i'll tend to lean over to Mr Negative.

My personality is weird,

It'll freaking take a hell load just to make me feel positive,

I know,

that's my prob,

but is not something i can control,

Im born like "this"

I'll still do my best anw.

My life is brilliant =)

I love you girl, sorry about today =(